previous dream experiments

these are really "notes to self" to get some thoughts out of my head, I am sure it is a temporary stage.

I am reminded of dream experiments I performed when I first arrived in Memphis and which I continued for several years. This would have been from 1990 to 1993.

At the time, I was very into self-hypnosis also, which I have semi-picked back up over the last year. But not to the level of clarity that I had then. Then, I had much less secondary-oversite thoughts - my tree of knowledge was smaller.

I was younger. To recall that time, I know that - my ideas of "what is possible" were less informed than what I know now - yet my enthusiasm to believe allowed me to immerse into the mental-scape... if not expand on it as I do now. Then, I had such little experience, that most of my ideas were others ideas, I did not go far from script, though I was also born with a lot of script that was never told me.

 The beginnings of the ideas - where they came from are clear that way - what is ME aligns top-to-bottom with my sense, what is not has some friction. However, I have been trying over the past three years to re=integrate (combine) that previous level of imagination with my knowledge and experience now. And I know that back then I felt I was much more "myself" as an even younger child, I can see those different self and ideas of selves back through the years, to my first memories, so I keep them maintained in my personal catalog. What I am doing now is more the fulfillment of ideas those me's had of what I could become in the future, and I know call on future selfs from the next decade and beyond for the same.

What I mean to say now is, back then, in 1990-1991 when I lived in the dorms at Memphis State (now University of Memphis) I would often awake and recall many layers of dreams within dreams and re-visions of dreams in the same night. I was very into reading Jane Roberts and lucid dreaming and attempting to use my dreams as a way to test the concepts of reality outside of reality. "outside" would be inside - the 'through-ness' of reality. If it were all a gestalt, it would be communication between non-consecutive layers.

If there was a "natural" way to connect to the realm of "heaven" - if -  then dreams are the most natural way, of the many ways. At that time, I was attempting to find a way to alter physical reality by my dreams or allow God to communicate instructions to me through dreams. What I would do with the information, or what those instructions would be was unknown. Only that I must study it, and in studying come to find proofs.

In my own mind, there is ample evidence in the world that what I did worked, However, it is never enough to convince oneself. Or to have only ideas to show for something. If the concept that I am grappling with here is factual then it will have use in the world. The type of use that I expect is the same as mathematics, physics, and end up creating the more practical items such as the engine and computer - yet these would be knew devices which have probably been only in the realm of science-fiction or fantasy or religious text.

To me, it is a coalescence of ideas which humanity has had for eons yet which have not been understood. I know it is the same situation the finders of electro-magnetic forces had. Proving and using something that is (for the most part) undetectable by human bodies, yet is available within our universe; as our bodies run on those same systems, yet we created electronics differently from our selves, yet in our own "reasoning" manner.

I have no doubt that I will explain this further over the next decade, it has just been attempting to gather the materials and check all the possibilities; not to mention putting it completely aside for 2000-2010. - and like a dream - when one is creating reality and livining in that reality, it is ... well, I need to get back tot he level of ability I had before. and will do that over the next 6months.